Gage, I'm profoundly saddened that you need hospice care. I'm also thankful it is still available. I can see see as ay where the only option people have is to take a $2 pill because it's cheaper

As far as hospice goes my wife has better Insights, she's the chief medical officer in this unit. She's told a dozen people at least that hospice is a place to live while you still can. Quality of life, not just a place to wait for the inevitable.
The most important thing, If you haven't already, get right with God. God made me to know Him, to love Him, and to serve Him in this world, and to be happy with Him for ever in heaven. Until you draw your last breath it's not too late. Don't miss the opportunity. Please PM me if you want to talk about this.
It reminds me of what St Augustine, who definitely is some one worth studying. He was a rich man, educated and very into the pleasures of life. Women, wine, and song. He is quoted as prayer "for chastity, but not yet." Now is definitely the time for that.